I am so incredibly bored at work today. I am waiting on a few projects and hesitate to take anything else on since I won't have time to work on them in a few days. So I sit. I blog stalk - Congrats to Mama C-ta on the arrival of her baby boy, I google people, I have made 20 trips to the ladies room to check on the progression of a pimple. Oh yeah, real exciting day! AND there are 2 hours left! 2!!!
Tonight I am supposed to have dinner with 2 of my girlfriends, but I don't want to. I don't know why, dinner with the girls should be fun. Oh wait! I know why! Because one of them is pregnant and is the most miserable pregnant women I have ever met. Serious negativity and EVERY pregnancy malady you read about she has. It is pretty annoying. Plus we are eating at her house and she thinks she is a great cook, but isn't AND I am on a diet so why eat lousy food? Also, she has cats. I have allergies - enough said!
The other friend who is coming to dinner tonight is trying to get pregnant. She has been trying since her miscarriage a year ago. She is hard to read - sometimes she wants to talk about it and other times she gets upset when I talk about how great a baby Ryan is. I completely understand - I can only imagine what she must be going through right now. I love her, but I am too tired to deal with her tonight. Actually to deal with either of them. Does that make me a bad person? I hope not. I think I am going to bail - I am using the lateness of dinner as an excuse. They want to meet at 7 and I want to be home by 8 so that I can take my walk tonight when it cools off a little bit.
You know, I feel like a truly awful person saying these things about them, but I really would rather be home with my boys. Oh wait - they are going to Rob's parents tonight. hmmmmm. What to do......
In other news, I am still pretty paranoid about what I posted yesterday. I dreamt of implantation spotting last night! Crazy! I am debating going back on the pill until the wedding, but I really don't want to - I really don't feel well on artificial hormones and I really want to get pregnant ASAP after the wedding.
Speaking of wedding - I am trying to find the perfect spot for pictures. Somewhere indoors since the weather can be so crappy that time of year. I called the Eastman House (home of George Eastman - founder of K*odak) and they charge $400 to use the house for pictures! $400!!!! Holy crap, batman! Back to square one on that!
Is it wrong that Rob is more into the wedding details than I am? The only thing I am looking forward to is meeting with the baker. Oooooh, maybe I'll use that as an excuse to get out of dinner tonight. A forgotten appointment?? The bakery doesn't take appointments!
Okay, maybe the new diet is making me cranky. That and PMS. Yup. I best stop blogging now!