Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Here comes the bride

Here it is! THE DRESS!!
I am mostly happy with it, but I am very concerned that my arms look HUGE in it! I need to start toning them up right away, but most likely I won't and I will spend the next 116 days obsessing over it and not actually doing anything and then hating all the wedding pictures. I know I mentioned in my 100 things that I am unhappy with my weight. This is not a post-baby issue for me, something I have been dealing with my whole adult life. Here is the break down, but please remember that I am barely 5 feet tall so these weights are NOT too low:
I was thin in high school and the first 3 years of college, right around 100 pounds. During my senior year, I gained about 20 pounds. I chalk it up to a bad relationship - I eat for comfort. After graduation, I moved back to Rochester, got a job and kept those 20 pounds until spring. Then I joined a gym, went 4 times a week, watched what I ate, and lost 20 pounds in 3 months!!! I can honestly say I looked my best then. I was able to keep the weight off for a few years and then I took a job in retail and ended up gaining 5 pounds back. I left that job and went back to school and kept those 5 pounds. After school I got a good job and a new boyfriend and maintained my weight at 105 to 108 pounds. That relationship went south and I was a mess - for the first time in my life I was unable to eat! I dropped about 5 pounds in a month, and then I met Rob. It is true - you do gain weight in a happy relationship!!! I went up to 120 pounds again! UGH! I tried tons of diets, but I knew I needed to exercise, so I joined the gym and lost 5 pounds! Then I got pregnant....
By the time Ryan was 4 months old I was back down to my pre-pregnancy weight of 115. 5 months later I am still there. I KNOW I need to exercise, but I just don't do it. I try, half heartedly, but I can't seem to get my butt in gear enough to actually do it. You would think the wedding would be enough incentive for me, but apparently it is not. We belong to the YMCA, but I haven't gone in months! Honestly, I haven't taken Ryan to the Child Watch since he got sick (and I am convinced it is from being there!). I walk a few times a week, but that is all I do. Any ideas on how to get my self back in the groove of exercising? I need it for more than just the weight loss - I need more energy too!
Anyway, as promised here is the dress....


Anonymous said...

Beautiful! I love your dress. I can totally relate on the whole upper arm situation. I can't get motivated to lift weights. You would think all of the cute sleevless shirts and dresses would get me moving but no such luck!!

joanaTX said...

Ugh..weight issues! I can relate. I am still 10 pounds over my pre-preggers weight. :0 I think you look great in your wedding dress and your arms look fine!!

Stacy (badgerfan) said...

Andrea, you look great in your dress!

I can relate to the weight issues too! I'm still 10 pounds away from my pre-preg weight. You'd think with us carrying our babies around we would have some nice toned arms!

I do agree that exercising does give you more energy. At least it does me. And once I get into my grove when I have to miss a day I actually miss it :)

Mama C-ta said...

Wow what a beautiful dress!! You look great in it and I know regardless of what I say you will feel how you feel but I think your arms look just fine! I hope you post all your wedding details and pics, I love that stuff!

As far as how to get you motivated for exercising, hmmm thats tough. I love going to the gym and lifting weights (problem is getting there and we recently cancelled the membership to cut back on bills) so now I'm screwed. I have to join something fun which is why I did Kung Fu, whips your ass into shape but it doesn't feel so much like "exercise." The buddy system def. helps, Bryan and I did "Body for Life" together and it was helpful having him into it too. And push ups are great and convenient for the arms (but watch you don't lose boobies like I did!) but still have to be in work out mode. OK so none of this helps. Sorry :( (and I was working out GREAT until a couple months before my wedding, I think the stress/nerves got to me and I eat for comfort too so don't feel bad the wedding isn't motivating!)

After this baby comes out, maybe we can start some online workout/support/buddy thing!! I'm going to need it!